Welcome Back Stress

School starts up again this week, Thursday to be exact. September 1st.
Excited? A little, mostly for Drama Club and the start of the Fall Play and just to do stuff again other than lazing about the house and doing odd ball stuff around the house.
Also not excited. Because my sleep schedule will have to be altered again, I'm currently typing up this entry at 2:40 am on Monday morning. Yep. Also, because stress, stress, stress.

I'll start getting homework to do again, I now have a part time job on the weekends and have to start fund raising for my Korea trip next summer. Not to mention college stuff.

I believe Stress and I will be "good friends" after a week or so of school.

Oh, and I have to start Christmas knitting.

I think I'm going to cry.

(But first, Hurricane Irene hit us up here in little Maine today. (Well, Sunday.) Was more of a tropical storm, but still pretty bad. We lost our power twice for quite a bit. At one point I was working on Portfolio art homework in candlelight, which was actually kind of fun. But, I'm glad for the internet and power to be back that's for sure.)

Being Indecisive is Killing Me

I have a tendency to not be very decisive when it comes to any kind of decision. I don't know what it is, but most of the time I just tense up and have no idea what to choose. Even when I've already decidied something, I tend to think "Oh, should I really do that? What about this? Oh, which one should I pick/choose/do?" and then anxiety and fear and just general unpleasentness comes afterward.

An example of this, is when I was tricked by a friend of mine, Miss Ephemeral, got me interested in going to Seoul, Korea. It looked really cool, beautiful and just like an amazing trip all together. Plus I had been interested in Korean culture and pop music for a while now, so it was a win-win all around. Right?

Well, there went my brain again. Thinking, 'What if I don't get to travel anywhere else in my life? Do I really want my first abroad experience to be in Seoul, Korea? What about some of the places I've been dreaming about visiting for ages now? What about, Italy? France? Ireland? Poland?' So I started to question my plans, think about going somewhere else next summer. (As you can see in my previous/first post here.)

But you know what, I need to stop being so, fickle I guess.

So, you know what? I'm going to go to Seoul, Korea next summer. It'll be fun and a hopefully wonderful start to my study abroad adventures! It'll be good this way, because a bunch of my friends, including Miss Ephemeral above (who will have been there for 4 months already, so she'll know her way around a little at least) will also be going to Seoul next summer. So I think it'd be good to have my first abroad trip with people I know from back home, to help make the trip easier. Then maybe once I'm in college, I can go somewhere else and study for longer. Maybe Ireland, maybe Italy. Who knows.

Just taking things one step at a time.

This has been a post about Kenzie's crazy brain and study abroad plans, along with a painful abuse of the strikeout.

In other news, I have a crush on a farmer at the local Farmer's Market. Go me.