I have a tendency to not be very decisive when it comes to any kind of decision. I don't know what it is, but most of the time I just tense up and have no idea what to choose. Even when I've already decidied something, I tend to think "Oh, should I really do that? What about this? Oh, which one should I pick/choose/do?" and then anxiety and fear and just general unpleasentness comes afterward.
An example of this, is when
I was tricked by a friend of mine,
Miss Ephemeral, got me interested in going to Seoul, Korea. It looked really cool, beautiful and just like an amazing trip all together. Plus I had been interested in Korean culture and
pop music for a while now, so it was a win-win all around. Right?
Well, there went my brain again. Thinking, 'What if I don't get to travel anywhere else in my life? Do I really want my first abroad experience to be in Seoul, Korea? What about some of the places I've been dreaming about visiting for ages now? What about, Italy? France? Ireland? Poland?' So I started to question my plans, think about going somewhere else next summer. (As you can see in my previous/first post here.)
But you know what, I need to stop being so, fickle I guess.
So, you know what? I'm going to go to Seoul, Korea next summer. It'll be fun and a
hopefully wonderful start to my study abroad adventures! It'll be good this way, because a bunch of my friends, including Miss Ephemeral above (who will have been there for 4 months already, so she'll know her way around a little at least) will also be going to Seoul next summer. So I think it'd be good to have my first abroad trip with people I know from back home, to help make the trip easier. Then maybe once I'm in college, I can go somewhere else and study for longer. Maybe Ireland, maybe Italy. Who knows.
Just taking things one step at a time.
This has been a post about Kenzie's crazy brain and study abroad plans, along with a
painful abuse of the strikeout.
In other news, I have a crush on a farmer at the local Farmer's Market. Go me.
There was no tricking! (okay, maybe a little) but mostly it was just illuminating a possibility you didn't see before!
ReplyDeleteBy deciding to go to Seoul this summer, you've also given your indecisive brain a longer span of time to decide where you'd like to study abroad.
If you want to travel, you will. It's all a matter of what you want to do. Most people who dont travel, or say they want to but don't, is mostly due to lack of desire or ambition. If you want to- you can. =]
P.S. Before I leave, I should stalk you to the Farmer's Market and check out this boy.
P.S.S. I like the nickname 'Miss Ephemeral'. <3